I love you, I love you, I love you

Baby I love you you are my life
My happiest moments weren't complete if you weren't by my side
You're my relation and connection to the sun
With you next to me there's no darkness I can't overcome
You are my raindrops I am the seed
With you and God who's my sunlight I'm blooming grown so beautifully
Baby I'm so proud, proud to be your girl
You make the confusion go all away from this cold and misty world

I am in love with you (In love)
You set me free
I can't do this thing called life without you here with me
Cause I'm dangerously in love with you (In love)
I'll never leave (Just)
Just keep loving me the way I love you loving me
Cause I am in love with you (In love)
You set me free
I can't do this thing called life without you here with me
Cause I'm dangerously in love with you (In love)
I'll never leave
Just keep loving me the way I love you loving me

And I know you love me love me for who I am
Cause years before I became who I am baby you were my man
I know it ain't easy, easy loving me
I appreciate the love and dedication from you to me
Later on in my destiny I see myself having your child
I see myself being your wife and I see my whole future in your eyes
But in awe of my love for you sometimes makes me wanna cry
Realize all of my blessings I'm greateful to have you by my side

I am in love with you (In love)
You set me free
I can't do this thing called life without you here with me
Cause I'm dangerously in love with you (In love)
I'll never leave (Just)
Just keep loving me the way I love you loving me
Cause I am (So) in love with you (In love)
You set me free
I can't do this thing called life without you here with me
Cause I'm dangerously in love with you (In love)
(No no no) I'll never leave
Just keep loving me the way I love you loving me
(Loving me)

Every time I see your face my heart smiles
Every time it feels so good it hurts sometimes
Created in this world to love, to hold, to feel, to breathe
To live you
Dangerously in love...you yeah

I am in love with you (In love)
You set me free
I can't do this thing called life without you here with me
Cause I'm dangerously in love with you
(In love, I love you, I love you I'll never leave)
I'll never leave (Just)
Just keep loving me the way I love you loving me
Cause I am in love with you
(In love with you, Im in love with you)
You set me free
I cannot do, I cannot do anything without you in my life
Holding me, kissing me, loving me

Dangerously (Dangerously)
Dangerous, dangerously in love with you
Dangerous, dangerously in love
Oh I love you, I love you, love you, love you, love you, love you
I love you (I love you)
Oh yeah, I love you
I love you, love you, love you
Love you, love you
(I love you)
I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you
Dangreously in love

Betty Ferragamo
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Currently in a dance group called "Flickers"
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Incredible boy
Incredible sum of money
Incredible people around me
Incredible career
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-10:39 AM

its been quite some time since the last time i blogged.oh well,i`m back.
so many things happened but i`m just too lazy to blog.lazy.lazy.lazy.

yesterday,priti was really sweet.he walked me home all the way till the main gate.damn happy sia! haha.wadever.my love towards him is getting stronger and stronger each day!i really hope we could last long. i know we are going to be separated one day,but plz let me at least last 1 year with him.this is the first time i`ve ever fallen in love deeply with someone.i wasn`t really serious with my past few ex-es.only the handsome ones lar.hehe.but seriously,not one noes how much i love him.maybe my blood sisters do,but,wadeverla.

yesterday the fucking moron called my hp again.i didn`t answer of course.i donno how many times he called the "home number" i gave him.haha.he was really dumb.u played with the wrong person bastard! get a life la. haha. i didnt know he was so dumb to believe that the number i gave him was my home number.haha.seriously dumb.20 year old oweadi,but so easy to goreng.hahaha.

today,deepavali.mendak sial.but i`m waiting patiently for the clock hand to strike 2.cuz there`s my favourite movie! qaisy n laila!wooooww!!! ok wadever.i dont tink i`m going out today.so i guess i` will be staring at my computer and watching a bit of tv the whole day.3 more days to raya! damn i cant wait.tuesday,going to grandma`s house to celebrate,wednesday going back to school for reherseal.thursday,the big day and friday i`m off to atc.woow!! gonna be busy!! ok wadever.

now i`m only worried about one thing.yesterday i ask mr tan,whether am i promoted or not,he replied "Of courselah but,i have to meet ur parents u know."argh i was so pissed off that time iand just shouted at him"da lah dont wanna talk to u la!" ya i noe,i was rude.but that`s wad happens when i`m really angry.haiz.actually there`s nothing to worry about him meeting my parents cuz i don have any problems with my teachers.its only that my studies dropped alot.i donno wads the main thing that made me drop,but wadeverla..i`m happy enough cuz i`m promoted!

i`m going to the thinking corner now,
and i`m gonna shrink my brains...
so...........




BYELA!


-7:25 PM

mendak!!!the whole day i didn`t get to see my beloved phone.its all because my sister borrowed it for awhile cuz her hp brokedown.now i`m patiently waiting for her to come back home.argh there must be alot of missed calls and messages!!
my cyg was so sweet just now.he waited for 4 hours till i finish my npcc with fateha.damn i was super happy sia.that`s considered sweet oweadi for me cuz he`s not a romantic or sweet guy actually.but waiting patiently for 4 hours in the school is sweet enough oweadi.thanks dear.

nothing much to blog about today.npcc was pretty tiring.we had to practice pitching a tent as a revision for our upcoming atc at pulau ubin.haiz another tiring day.

seriously i`m running out of words.nothing interesting happened today.so i guess i`ll write more tomorrow.





byela!


-4:35 PM

answer scripts were out today.damn.i was quite disappointed with the marks i`ve got.especially english,malay and maths.my maths really drop,my english dropped too and even the subject which i`m always known to be the highest dropped too.man!how i wish i could turn back the time.but its useless to cry over spilt milk rite.so i guess now its time to bear wadeverr that mum has to say bout my bloody results.haiz......other than that,i got nothing to say.

chub2 cried badly because of her english marks.i told her she got the second or the 3rd highest in class,but she carried on crying as if that`s the end of her life.u should noe how bad she cried.
i was so "serba-salah".if i try to cheer her up,she will start throwing things at me.be it pencil box or flexible curve ruler.i cannot leave her alone crying cuz i cannot stand to see my blood sister crying,i will join too.automatically.my marks was even worse.but its ok.there`s still paper 1.
TO EUIS TRIANTINI aka CHUB2:
cheer up girl.u scored very well for ur other subjects.plus,wad is so bad bout ur marks?? mr tan oweadi said,that`s the standard,and u actually did quite well.
CHEER UP GIRL!!!!

about my guy.
haiz i really donno wad i should say say to him oweadi.just now,we were spending some time hanging around at the playground.jonathan,jun kai,nurul,amirah,euis,alvin,me and him was there.i didn`t talk much with him the whole day, donno why.i was entertaining euis that time wen i realised that the playground was suddenly quiet.the boys were gone.including him.when i search n search,then i saw them walking towards s11.i was very frustrated.i was so angry that i took my bag and just left my friends just like that.and i only turn back wen one of my sisters shouted my name,"Betty!Where are u going?".i shouted back,"Home!"then they walk me home.
i was really angry that time.haiz.has he no brains? shouldn`t he at least tell me where is heading to?he`s not treating me like his girl again!!oh nvm,i guess i`ll have to wait like some kind of idiot.

lets wait and see.


i`m done for now.





byela.......................................


-5:28 PM

i`m continously repeating the song hurt by christina aguilera now.i just realised that this song is really meaningful to me and pritpal.i`ve always scolded him for not treating me like his girl.and i`m always blaming him if there`s any problem.i ididn`t even realise that i was childish too.my past reasons for breaking up with him was that he was too childish,he never treat me like his girl,he wasnt romantic at all and many other unreasonable reasons.now after i`ve heard this song with some great support from my blood sisters,i realise that i need to change too.the thing is dat i tend to look away from him whenever a new guy approach me.that was the greatest mistake.if not because of that,we could actually be together for more than 4 months.and i also realise that he has been very patient with wadever i do to him.i have to stop this nonsence and be more mature,and stop flirting with older guys that i dont even noe where the fucking hell they come from!!!haiz...its time for me to appreciate his love and teach him the things that he should noe.

i`m sorry for,
blaming you,
for everything,
that i just couldn`t do,
and i`ve hurt myself,
by hurting you..................................

i really want our relationship to last long.blood sisters,euis,nurul,amirah especially,i need u guys to help me in this.i only have u guys to share bout this problem.
oh well.....
today nothing much happen.i finish washing the monsters and now i`m wasting my time writing these hari raya cards for my aunts.why must it be always me who have to do this kind of stupid things that parents should do?haiz..i hate this..argh!!

i`m running out of words..





BYELA!


-10:49 AM

what`s the motive of hurting someone badly when u don`t even know that someone.
unless u get paid for it.i`m talking about the 20 year old guy who flirted with me.
yesterday we stead at around 1.43pm and end our fucking relationship at 12mn.guys out there,
i promise that was the shortest relationship i`ve ever had.we broke up just because of 1 stupid
bloody reason.i dont wanna have sex with him.don`t u find that crappy?i don`t give
a freaking damn if u wanna break just because of that.i`m only 14 and that`s super young to lose ur virginity.but i have to admit he is such a smart ass,he took my home phone no,reason just to save it inside his phone.i gave him without thinking twice.that`s very stupid.
after the broke up,he criticized me from top to toe.only god knows how bad i felt last night.
i told him i wanna meet him on monday and that i could take the risk of lying to my mother.
he recorded every single word that comes out of my mouth.and he told me he`s gonna prank tonight(2+am).and he`s gonna call my house to talk to my parents about how bitchy and flirty i am and let my parents listen to the recording.i was so freaking scared that couldnt sleep the whole night.the next morning (sahur),i heard my brother said "tk taula suare dier mcm...."
its as if he did prank last night and it was my brother who answered the call.when i looked at the id caller the next morning,there`s a private no. calling at 2.10am.that must be him.
i told my sister about this,and she is really willing to help me.THANK U KAKAK! LURRP U
SO MUCH!now,i`m keeping myself near the phone,so when the phone rings,i`ll be the first one to answer.if i see it states 'private' at my id caller, i will change my voice.i`m cursing him everytime when i think about this problem.i really hope that 1 day,karma will strike him.
what comes around,goes around FUCKER! ya allah! plz show him how bad and afraid i am now.
and plz,i don want him to call my house.i`m not really scared,cuz i got a strong reason about this matter to explain to my parents if he happens to talk to them.

i guess its to early to blog about today..
i`ll stop here then..
blogging more later i guess..


byela!!


-10:56 AM

its still very early to blog about today.
so i`m blogging bout yesterday.

pritpal called me,but i didn`t answer.
so as to tell him him that i`m still angry with his words to shawn.
i told hannah wad my decision was,and she helped me msg jonathan bout my final
decision.she told me he wasnt surprise or angry.i was relieved.but a few minutes after
my break fast,i received a msg from him. damn i read it on the wrong time.
my stomach was so full wen i read that msg,which read "what the hell is wrong with you?"
my food did jump in my tummy.just a small jump.i was really pissed off by then.
can u type something nicer? like "what`s wrong with u girl?" or something.......
i immediately called hannah and told her bout that.coz at first she told me he doesn`t sound
angry.jonathan is like telling me what to do.
hello?? this is my life.i`m leading it my own way.so get the hell out of my life and just simply
take care of ur chipped tooth!

a few hours before that incident,a cute chinese mix malay guy,age 20,
flirt-ed with me.usually i hate flirts.coz usually the ones who flirt with me are ugly.
from fat tillas thin as my mum`s broom stick.haiz...
but this time,he`s really cute.he was the first cutest guy to ever flirt with me.
damn! i was really happy.haha.
he asks for my no. and i gave it.he called me a few minutes later,and really flirt
with me.he even call me kecik when i`m not! he even gave me goodbye kiss before he
hang up!! argh! he melted my heart!!when i share this story with my blood sisters,
most of them don`t agree if one day i stead with him.all because of one main reason,
"he`s 20 which is considered old for me,and he could do anything to me."haiz.....
that`s true,but what if he is really a good guy?i dont trust guys too.but what if
one day i found myself falling in love with him deeply?
haiz looks like i have to think over boys again.

later at night,
my ex which i dont really consider as one, chatted with me.
i seriously feel like blocking him when talk to me in malay language,
but used 'i' and 'u' to address each other.malay peeps,u should know what i`m trying to
say.argh!and guess wad,he sound me patch!u tink i`m happy or proud with that?
u are totally wrong! i felt so disgusted that i cough and miracally,the phlegm which
had been stuck in my throat for quite a long time landed in my mouth and i had to rush
to the toilet to spit it.actually thx for his words,but i really felt disgusted.
i replied no of course.

till then...
my stomach`s playing a drum..
asking me to feed..


byela!


-2:54 PM

Today.
So many things happened.The great monster really pissed me off today.I really felt like digging a small hole,throw him inside,splash some cooking oil and throw a lighted matchstick.HUZZAH! a surprise. ok wadever.
i hate my brother!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

anyway.....
my ex wanna patch.i`m in a dilemma.dono to accept him or not.i dont trust him anymore.
haiz.a bouquet of flowers won`t mend my tattered and torn heart.u hurt me so badly.but it actually depends on the flower.if it is my favourite one,which is the sunflower,i would jump for
joy.seriously.but only for awhile,cuz.....as above..

kla...
i wanna go to my thinking corner to tink bout this.
byela!!


-1:36 PM

argh!!
hate today!!!
hate today!!

morning,on the way to school...
got trapped in a spider web...
not really trap la....
but argh......
it was all over my face....
luckily the spider wasn`t around....
maybe he was cooking or went to the market to buy some food....

next...
dnt exam...
how it sucks marn!!!!
its so hard dat i feel like tearing the paper and shove it into mr soo-sah`s ass!!
but the maths was quite easy.
easier than yesterday!!
ok wadeverr...

next thing which i consider really suck is pritpal!
first....
went to the shop,hannah ask him to treat her drink,
he bought for her...
wen hannah ask him to buy for me...
he said "see first ah"....
i stamped my feet and walk out of the shop....
second....
shawn told me...
wen he ask pritpal why treat betty so badly,she wanted to give u a chance...
he slumberly reply "aiyah,dont care la.."
damn!! it really pricked right into my heart sia!
i`ve already decide....
FORGET HIM.
NEVER TURN BACK.
STAY SINGLE OR GO FOR ANOTHER GUY.
call me a flirt if u want to..
CUZ I DONT GIVE A FUCK!!
OK??

no mood ah
byela!



-2:49 PM


ola!!
today was really tiiriing at the same tiime fun!!
tiiriing because ii had my hiistory and maths exam..............
ii have thiis strong feeliing that ii wiill faiil my maths badly...
ii diidn`t have much tiime....
my hiistory?
most of the questiions ii diid it my way!
wadever dat comes to my miind on that tiime,ii wiill just happiily wriite down....
urgh.......
yeah,ii know dat sound so stupiid.....
the fun part was,
chunkiie (nurul) and chub2 (euis) came to my houes...
at fiirst we were thiinkiing of reviisiing our dnt together.....
but iit turn up the other way round....
we played,acted,shouted and read some stupiid magaziines for the whole of 2 hours!!
man! that was really wastiing of tiime isn`t iit?
tomorrow ii wiill be sadly siittiing for my maths paper 2 and dnt...
haiz....
once agaiin...
a tiiriing day......

and yeah!!!
ii donno wad my siis diid to msn yeasterday,
today ii cannot get through iit at all!!
thiis totally sucks!!!
haiz......
sucks...sucks...sucks...
.......................
and yeah,
yesterday niite iit sucks too....
my brother iis so freakiing annoyiing!!
he told my mum dat every nite he hear my laughing loudly...(talking to the phone lar)
straiight away my mother ask for my phone....
iit was confiiscated...
haiz............
ii hate my brother!!!!
urgh!!!
wad makes him so unsatiisfiied wiith me?
not enough wiith wad dad bought for him for raya?? (evo9)
stiill.....
want to diisturb me....
everyday he wiill iirriitata my ear!!
are u not tiired??
luckiily he don have blog...haiiz.........

da la........
ii`m tiired of typing!
byela!


-1:17 PM


oh well.....
ii`m back once agaiin....
ii could not get through the iinternet for 2 freackiing days!!
suck!!

ok wadeverr.....

friiday....
had my bloody sciience paper....
chemiistry was really suckiing my blood...
iit was really hard....
biio was kiinda easy...
physiics was quiite hard.....
ii donno wads up wiith my braiin.....
3 weeks of concentrated sciience,
but stiil ii cannot answer most of the questions....
iis there any tool dat can fix my knowledge world..??
ii hate my brain!!
oh maybe not!!!
no! no!
ii love iit......
ii maybe weak iin sciience......
but not iin other subjects.........
haha...
crap...
wadeverr la


saturday.....
went to my criippled granny`s house.....
okla...
she`s not criippled but...
ii have to admiit....
she`s fat....
old and fat...
better than short,fat,ugly,noiisy....
ok.....
wadeverr la....
but yeah....
she`s noiisy at the same tiime niice (attiitude,not features)
i love her actually.....
.......................
there,laze around....
went to shoppiing mall and my dad bought for me 3 baju raye!!
they`re really sweet....
no shoes thiis year.....
haiz nvm....

haiiz...
ii`m really runniing out of words!!
stiill need to study for my maths tomorrow!!
argh hate exams!!
HATE THEM TO THE CORE!!!!
agree??
wadeverr la....


-6:12 PM

yoohoo!!
today ii`m really stiickiing miie eyes onto those sciience books!!
tomorrow science la!!! streamiing dude!!
DIAMLAH! tkya pekiik kan!
ok wadeverr......
ii`m so freakiing nervous now......
ii always faiil my sciience and ii really hope thiis tiime
ii could make my parents proud by just passiing sciience....
sciience onii??
nola of course not!!
well.....ii really put sciience and maths iin the most iimportant category...
and my parents,wen they got my report book the first their eyes wiill liink to iis
my maths and sciience....

ii use to love maths so much....
ii got 80 for mid-year eaxamiinatiion...
but now,my iinterest towards dat subject iis gone totally...
ii began to hate maths so much until ii got 30+ for some of my class tests...
bad riite??
dats y ii hope for streamiiing,ii want to get at least 70.....
ii dont want to diisappoiint them....
actually wad make me hate maths iis my class....
wenever ii try to concentrate,they`ll make aniimal noises.....
but the teacher dont care....
wad the teacher usually do iis contiinue teachiing.....
if she really cannot tahan oweadii,she wiill just walk out of the class and cry....
haiz.......
not onii miie maths teacher suffer,my sciience teacher would also face the same thiing...
but wad they wud do iis just complaiin to our form-teacher......
the 2nd chubbiiest teaacher iin regent secondary skool:mr hector tan..
chubby n bubbly....but very fiierce at tiimes.....
ii tiink he`s the greatest teacher ii ever had...

ok back to the story....
sciience...
yeah....
ii start to lurrve chemiistry,iits hard but kiinda iinterestiing....
ii lurrve experiiments...
my latest experiiment iis.....
puttiing mentos in coca-cola....
try iit......ii`ve done iit.....
but pls......
dont do it iin the kitchen or ur room....
do iit iin the toiilet.....
iits really fun!! trust me!!
hahax...
k wadeverr....
ii wanna go study....
bye.....

diiamla!!nk pergii pergi jer!!
tkya nk bye niie sumer la!!
anak ikan parii!!

diam sorang laaaaaaaa...........................................................................


-7:52 PM

BeTTy FeRegaMo...
10 apriil 1992 was when ii had my fiirst cry......
age?......... count urself larr.....
stayiing cck area.....
stuck in regent secondary......

for now ii`m a full-tiime......
--joker!!
--laugher!! (got such word arh?)
--dancer!!
--student!!(so obviious riite)
--daughter!!(more obviious riite)
--lover!!(nola!! siince wen ii got boii!!)

....................wad ii usually do wen i got nothiing better to do.................................
== golfiing wiith my dad==
==chat wiib my beshties on the phone==
(euis aka chub2,ameera aka liilo flicker,nurul aka nurul flicker,hannah aka lala)
ii lurb them to the core!!! ok wadeverr.....
==chattiing on msn==
==smsing==
==crackiing lame jokes==
==eatiing lots of carbohydrate food whiich lead to fats==
(dats y sometiimes i lurrve and sometiimes ii hate them)
==skiippiing==
==make more frenz==
==readiing horror books==
==laziing around at my musuem-liike house==
(quiite biig and very empty for me)
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! enough larr...wanna noe me more,add me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
msn n frenster:diamondmine_matilda@hotmail.com








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